S1E3

Hey. Sometimes, James feels like a boy I could love. Like, really love. Then, other times, he feels like a total fucking stranger. It's an extra £30 for a late checkout. Fine. That's a lot of cash. We robbed a bank. Keep the change. Could get a train to your dad's. Maybe. What if he doesn't want to see me? Well, shall we? - What? - Get a train to your dad's. He probably won't even recognize me. #NAME? We should lie low for a bit. Wait a couple of days before we start getting on any trains or anything. #NAME? - He assaulted me. - Doesn't matter. We should go off-grid for a bit. Isn't your dad's off-grid? #NAME? I'm not. He's miles away. We need to find somewhere nearby. Somewhere nice. Could be like a mini break. Holy shit. #NAME? That this one's safe. No obvious burglar alarm. Dust everywhere, so no cleaner to worry about. Post. At least a week's worth. Is breaking and entering the best way of lying low? Cool. - Think that's him. Who? -The guy that lives here. Yeah, obviously. Bit uptight, isn't he? He's a professor. Whatever, it's fucking weird having a photo of yourself. Hey. Look what I found. Alyssa didn't have much respect for people. Or people's stuff. I sometimes wonder if I should just become an alcoholic. It means you've always got something to do. I reckon this'll do. Yeah. We can just chill here, plan our route, take our time. Yep. I'm trying to think what adults do in situations like this. Should we go downstairs and have a glass of wine? Yeah. OK. Are you hungry? Always. Well, that wasn't as shit as I expected. It was actually really nice. Thank you. How do you know how to cook? Taught myself. It was that or type 2 diabetes. We should wash up. Some people get embarrassed dancing. I don't. I think it's when I feel most myself. I get embarrassed talking. Well, after talking. When I realize I've said something stupid. We should do this naked. Something like that. As a rule, I didn't dance, but it was hard to say no to Alyssa. Hey, close your eyes. - What? - Close your eyes. I promise I won't look. I think he is properly beautiful. But he'll never start anything, so... Come here. Undo your belt. Whoever says all boys are obsessed with sex hasn't met James. I really hope I'm not bad at this. Huh. Is this OK? Um, stop. Please, could you stop. #NAME? #NAME? #NAME? Fuck you! Alyssa! I tended not to feel things. For a long time, I was good at it. Good at feeling absolutely nothing. I didn't even have to try. I just... didn't. The world is fucking bleak. I guess I try and do things to forget that it is. Keep busy, keep blind. I thought that's what me and James were doing. Don't look at that. Hey. Hey. #NAME? Yeah, right. You look better in person. Fuck off. I do, actually. My mum says it's my secret weapon, which I think is kind of rude, but I see her point. #NAME? Alyssa. Cool. What's yours? Topher. What kind of a name is Topher? It's short for Christopher. So, why can't you just be called Chris, like a normal person? Dunno. Guess I'm a twat. #NAME? #NAME? Whoa! Is this your place? We're squatting. Who's we? James, this is Topher. And we're going upstairs to have sex. Being with Alyssa had started to make me feel things. She made me feel things. And I didn't like it at all. Um... What? This isn't being filmed is it? Are you actually underage and someone's gonna leap out like, "catch a pedophile"? Oh, for God's sake! Come on, then! Alyssa had thrown me a curveball. I had to bide my time. So I decided to have a look around. Shit. You're cool, Alyssa. You're really fucking cool. Thanks. It's no good. It's just no good. Thanks, James. - I'm sorry. - What? I changed my mind. I'm sorry, I'm not into this. Are you... Are you kidding? Nope. That's not fair. Uh, yes, it is. Please, Alyssa. I think you're amazing. Well, then, respect me changing my mind, and fuck off, please. It's like... There is a word for girls like you. I'll bet. She is a fucking prick-tease bitch. Right, yeah. I'll tell her. Alyssa? Go away. It feels like sex can go from something you want to do to a punishment, really fucking quickly. I waited until she fell asleep. When her eyes were closed... Alyssa looked a lot less angry. That's great. Thank you very... much. Oh, fuck. How did you get in here? I'm sorry. It's OK. It's OK, you just... gave me a shock, that's all. Are you in trouble? You needed somewhere to stay? That's all right. You on your own? Yes. OK. You made a bit of a mess downstairs, didn't you? Hmm? You've been eating my porridge, as well, Goldilocks? What? Shush, shush, shush, shush. Just stay still. Please don't. Don't what? Hey, you gonna make this difficult? Oh... Are you a virgin? No.